the futures not ours to see...que sera ..sera...

Who would have thought at about 11 months to go to my big 5 0hh..i had denounced myself from Islam to become a realist or a believer of the natural science in everything pertaining to life..in short an agnostic.atheist or free thinker sound a bit crude or ol skool really....in mind...old people with black suits and pointed witches hats..in Ipoh..!!haha.
When it was made about official of this paradigm shift of mine, the reactions varied from nothing new really, to you are just kidding to why didnt i kill you when you were born,no matter what it is my personal belief and conviction that religion was simply made up to put law and order in peoples life when at that prehistoric time , it was simply chaotic all around. Some voices or beliefs had to triumph.Islam was born simply to calm people down of the abundance choices of pagan like beliefs going around at that time. And it was done brilliantly. Choose an imbecile who cant read nor write,one with a near perfect character,and make him the last apostle from god , so we like to think.The problem is , this concept of Islam worked only at that time because the society was backward and no real intelligent challenge came about because Mohammed ruled with an iron fist.As we progress, Islam was filtered down drastically to the level it is today...today , we only use Islam when it suited us, Faraid becoming most common, off others ,it became so bad, todays Muslims only recite like a parrot and behaved like mankind when they are praying and showing off to the society they are the responsible god fearing people.Off that mat, its another story altogether.. they turn to become beasts and animals that would stop at nothing to satisfy their lust and hunger for wealth and women.
So, lastly i decided, if these are what the Umat of Muhammads are really like...then i beg to differ.Because no matter what belief i have right now, i would not be swayed by strangers , family,friends and relatives to put my own flesh and blood to 'sleep' so i gain materially off  their demise.Well , that is me and only me and i am speaking of my own sentiments in life,not for a second echoing my mums daughters siblings others known ...they are on their own.Have a safe and merry festive season..god bless.

And when i die...id like to be remain in ashes.Please.Thank you.